I Have No Idea Where I Am Going

Howdy! I guess it is time for another of my “once in a blue moon” posts…

I heard this prayer during a recent study of Christian contemplative Thomas Merton. It is a raw and honest prayer that I will use as a source of strength as I continue to wrestle with questions of God’s will for my life.

I Have No Idea Where I Am Going – Thomas Merton

“My Lord God I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.

But I believe that my desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.

Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.”

Life-saving song…

A dear friend of ours lost their son who was only 4 hours old. They held him knowing he was going to die. This song was played at his funeral. The infant’s father said this song saved his life…

Trust Him with your life and He WILL show you the way…

Great testimony from a man whose life was out of control and was running from God.

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David’s Prayer

I wrote this song a few years ago during a very dark time of my life. I was feeling very far away from God and wondering if I was ever going to feel His love again. I was wondering if I even wanted to feel His love again, because I felt like He was leaving me in the mire.

I prayed to Him.

I yelled at Him.

I cried to Him.

I even cursed at Him.

He.

Did.

Not.

Answer.

One late Summer evening, sitting out on the back porch, ready to give up…hot tears began streaming down my face. I did not know why, but I couldn’t stop them. I began speaking the words to the song and realized I was given a prayer. Those hot tears were very cleansing. I began to feel a warmth and comfort that I have never felt before and may never feel again. But, I knew the Holy Spirit was washing over me. How do I know? I just know.

If you are in the mire and feeling that God has forsaken you…He hasn’t. I don’t know why He let me wallow in my own pity. I don’t know why He allowed me to go through that dark time, but He did. I think maybe He knew it would draw me closer to Him…make me trust Him more…make me love Him more. The last thing I was thinking about was loving Him. Yet all the while, He was loving me.

Don’t give up on God. Trust me. He hasn’t, and never will, give up on you. Nothing you have done, or will ever do, can separate you from the love of God.

Blessings,
D.

David’s Prayer
(c) 2001

Hot tears streaming down my face again
World’s knocked me to my knees
Lord, I want to feel your love again
Hold me Father, please

You touched my heart
Took my tears and cried them for me
Burn the darkness from my soul
So I can see your face
Lord, I pray I’ll be a man
Who trusts you on the road before me
I’m reaching out to hold your hand
and trust the man who died for me

In your presence Lord I must be still
I can’t do this on my own
Help me Jesus to accept your will
And sacrifice my own

You touched my heart
Took my tears and cried them for me
Burn the darkness from my soul
So I can see your face
Lord, I pray I’ll be a man
Who trusts you on the road before me
I’m reaching out to hold your hand
and trust the man who died for me

You touched my heart
Took my tears and cried them for me
Burn the darkness from my soul
So I can see your face
Lord, I pray I’ll be a man
Who trusts you on the road before me

Help me God to understand
How you love me as I am
I’m reaching out to hold your hand
And trust the man who died for me

I love the man who died for me…

(WordPress is charging for MP3 space now…send me an email if you’d like the MP3 of this song.)

What’s new?

I don’t make New Year resolutions. I think they are well-intended in most cases, but I can’t say I know anyone who has ever kept one. I certainly never have! Having said that, I want something new this year. I want to be different. I want to change. I started a stained glass business last year with every intention of making it my “exit plan” from my current career. Well, a year later not only did I not make an exit, I didn’t really get going on my goal at all! Oh sure, I registered the name and am all official, but I just never really got going. A friend of mine always says, “If you want what you have, keep doing what you’re doing.” There’s nothing wrong with what I have. I am very blessed. But if I want things to change, then I’ve got to do something about it. One thing I’ve done is started telling people about my business goals. It puts the word out, but it also puts a certain amount of accountability on me. As a result, I have my first commission designing and constructing some windows for a friend who is having a house built. I will also have a panel up as an item for a silent auction next month. So…things are starting to change. All I have to do is keep the wheels in motion.

I thank God for the many blessings I have. I thank Him for the talents and gifts He has given me. I pray that I will be a good steward of those talents and gifts and use them for His glory.

What’s new with you?

Is this thing on?

Boy…it sure is dusty ’round here! To all that are still around, “howdy”! Haven’t decided yet, but I might start peeking in again from time to time.

Hope everyone had a blessed Christmas.

Happy New Year!

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